perspective....

well my last post was crazy to anyone who doesn't know what's going on in my life. this is really the first day i've felt decent since last saturday. i've spent the past week being miserable and worried and anxious and so many other emotions. i won't go into detail, but it's just been a really tough time for me and david. lots of things neither of us can understand right now, and i guess we're not supposed to. that's where faith is built. i've had a terrible struggle with faith this week. thankfully, i was blessed with sleep last night and i think i'm seeing things more logically. i think at least. it's hard, but as so many people are telling me, things could be worse. it's hard to look at the bright side of things when there's no light anywhere. i'm being vague, i know, but if i think about things to write about them, it'll just bring them up in my mind again. so, at that point, i will end here. i'm going home this afternoon and to new orleans tomorrow. maybe things will look brighter when we get back....