epiphany....

appropriate title considering how close that is... i was waiting on david to come have lunch with me and i was thinking about all the why's i've had lately. why hasn't he got a job, why does he keep getting discouragement, why can't we just have a normal little family. then i realized, all these why's are earthly desires. i got my priorities wrong big time. so i hope to get out of this funk and focus on more heavenly things and desire not my will but Thine. there's too much hurt and pain in this world. and i don't want to be a big ball of darkness in it. i flipped through my daily Bible verse calendar my sweet neighbor i grew up by gave me for my birthday, and i saw this from a couple weeks ago -

The Sovereign Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to go on the heights. -Habakkuk 3:19

just felt really appropriate to me today.

wow....

i can't believe thanksgiving is this week. time really does go by faster as you get older. i haven't been blogging much. i don't have much to talk about. i'm dealing with this awful issue of bitterness. i'm so bitter about so many things right now. i won't go into detail. it's just something i'm so sick of dealing with. i know deep down God has a plan, but it's so very very hard to continue living in the same situation with no light at the end of the tunnel, i guess is the best way to put it. aw, billy the exterminator... sorry commercial distracted me. i love billy. i love that he hates to kill things. plus they're good ol louisiana folks. can't go wrong with that. i'd be closer to home if i was there... well south louisiana. i'm rambling now, i realize that. you know i used to put a lot of stock in education, but i really don't anymore. my husband has worked so long and hard for his education, and it's unfortunately getting him nowhere. well, if you know me you know that's what's taking its toll on me. as always, five years of taking its toll on me. i'm so tired... mentally, physically, and spiritually...

my crafty weekend....

friday, i made a cowl...

saturday, i made a wreath...

and today, i made my first attempt christmas tree topper bow. bows are not my specialty...

on a quest....

to get myself more organized. i am for the most part, but i get messy with it. this has all started with my coupon binder. it is becoming a pain in the behind to keep up. i clip all these coupons and never use most of them. so i'm going to the whole insert method. all the bargain sites i use list coupons by dates and inserts anyways, so why was i wasting all this time clipping coupons. that project is in progress.

i can't stand a messy house. period. and my house gets messy very quickly. so that's my next step. getting some sort of plan together to keep up with the housework.

i am proud to say i am well ahead of the game on my christmas shopping for this year. of course, the gifts are piling up in my spare bedroom and making that room a mess now. i just hate to pull out my wrapping paper. ugh. the spare bedroom closet, du-du-dum... that place is a bottomless pit of stuff. maybe that should be my next goal, get rid of stuff.