epiphany....

appropriate title considering how close that is... i was waiting on david to come have lunch with me and i was thinking about all the why's i've had lately. why hasn't he got a job, why does he keep getting discouragement, why can't we just have a normal little family. then i realized, all these why's are earthly desires. i got my priorities wrong big time. so i hope to get out of this funk and focus on more heavenly things and desire not my will but Thine. there's too much hurt and pain in this world. and i don't want to be a big ball of darkness in it. i flipped through my daily Bible verse calendar my sweet neighbor i grew up by gave me for my birthday, and i saw this from a couple weeks ago -

The Sovereign Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to go on the heights. -Habakkuk 3:19

just felt really appropriate to me today.