update....

since i left facebook, i thought i'd post an update for anyone who cares. i had a pulmonary function test done today and monday i have an echo cardiogram. hopefully, between the two of those, they can figure out what's wrong with me. i feel better just being on the new inhaler the dr. gave me last thursday. i have actually ate pretty well for almost a week. i've probably ate the same amount of food in 5 days than i did in the 5 weeks before that. so, hopefully, i don't look like i'm dying of some horrible disease, as my mother told me, anymore. i'm still trying to find a home for one kitten if anybody is interested. super sweet, playful, and loving. i wish so much i could keep all of them, but it really would not help my health right now. i feel like a horrible person putting my health before a precious animal, but i gotta start taking better care of myself if i'm even gonna see 30. :)

i'm here....

i deactivated my facebook account. it causes me too much sadness and drama, so i left. i may go back, but not for a while. something really sad happened yesterday for someone i've never even met, just talked to through facebook. and my heart was broken along with hers, so i felt it was best to just leave. there's too much sadness in the world as it is and i don't want to bring more upon myself. so, in the meantime, i will try to update my blog better and stay connected through here. i do have two book reviews i have to write. been putting them off way too long.

request....

if you read my blog, i'd like to ask you for your prayers. the last few years have been a very difficult struggle for d, he's worked very hard on his education and had no luck finding a job where he can use his talents and abilities. he interviewed for a great job last week. a week ago today to be exact. we haven't heard anything back yet, but we both really hope this one will be the one God's wants for us. so, i just ask for prayers that we will follow His will and know what direction to take. and also for this job. this if it is meant to be, everything will just fall in to place... thanks....

phew....

that's the sound of me finishing christmas shopping today! yay! christmas really shouldn't be this stressful. i need to spend the next week focusing on the real meaning of christmas and not all this stress. we got lots of travel ahead the next two weeks. but it's nice to spend it with my crazy, silly, wonderful family. we always get good memories at christmas...
like dink catching her hair on fire, or bradley making it known who made the big smell... that's putting it politely :) alayna and laurie fighting over the walking doll. yeah, those memories everybody hopes you don't remember. but those are the best ones.

epiphany....

appropriate title considering how close that is... i was waiting on david to come have lunch with me and i was thinking about all the why's i've had lately. why hasn't he got a job, why does he keep getting discouragement, why can't we just have a normal little family. then i realized, all these why's are earthly desires. i got my priorities wrong big time. so i hope to get out of this funk and focus on more heavenly things and desire not my will but Thine. there's too much hurt and pain in this world. and i don't want to be a big ball of darkness in it. i flipped through my daily Bible verse calendar my sweet neighbor i grew up by gave me for my birthday, and i saw this from a couple weeks ago -

The Sovereign Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to go on the heights. -Habakkuk 3:19

just felt really appropriate to me today.

on a quest....

to get myself more organized. i am for the most part, but i get messy with it. this has all started with my coupon binder. it is becoming a pain in the behind to keep up. i clip all these coupons and never use most of them. so i'm going to the whole insert method. all the bargain sites i use list coupons by dates and inserts anyways, so why was i wasting all this time clipping coupons. that project is in progress.

i can't stand a messy house. period. and my house gets messy very quickly. so that's my next step. getting some sort of plan together to keep up with the housework.

i am proud to say i am well ahead of the game on my christmas shopping for this year. of course, the gifts are piling up in my spare bedroom and making that room a mess now. i just hate to pull out my wrapping paper. ugh. the spare bedroom closet, du-du-dum... that place is a bottomless pit of stuff. maybe that should be my next goal, get rid of stuff.

cricket....

we have a cricket that has taken up residence on our back porch. i'm glad he's there. makes me think of home. i never realized how much i missed hearing crickets until he moved in. it's something i'm so used to hearing back home, it's like i don't even notice it until it's gone. that doesn't make much sense, does it. anyways, i hope he stays around.

i have a book review i've been meaning to write for three weeks. i'm so far behind on it, along with lots of other things.

oh and my sweet finney is back to her happy swimmy self. i felt absolutely terrible for feeding her that food. supposed to be the best out there and it's not cheap, i'll say that. so we're sticking to homemade food and nice veggies for the girl. yes, i make my fish homemade food. much better than that flake crap. at least i know what's in it.


not too easy taking a picture of a fish.

quick post....

i've had a super busy week. i took a couple days off last week to go home for the holiday weekend. it was a nice trip. i feel like i slept for 2 days straight.

i did make a deposit to our disney fund. $42.02... $20 left out of my birthday money. i used the rest to start my thirty-one business. and the rest from leftover grocery budget money. total $202.42. long way to go, but i'm getting there :) plus if i make any influence on people to budget, coupon, save money, etc. i'm doing pretty good. wink wink jill.

motivation....

i just haven't had it to blog lately. i guess there's just not much exciting going on. ever get a summer rut? i do every year. things slow down so much at work, not that it's a bad thing, but the days drag on and on. we've already gone on our big vacation for the year so i don't have that to look forward to. i think i need a couple days off and to go somewhere. just a change of scenery. maybe that'd help...

saturday in the park...

i'm so glad the weekend is here. i always hate wishing my life away, but i neeed some lazy time this weekend. i haven't even been lazy yet. i got up and started cleaning and made breakfast. david's still asleep. that's ok, i can get more down with him upstairs. i'm excited today cause abc family is showing all three back to the futures. i don't know why, i have the dvds and can watch them anytime. well, i guess i don't really have much excitement to report or ramble about this morning. i think i might go get in the pool before it gets crowded...

things...

they've just been pretty crummy. i know it could be much much worse, i sometimes get so caught up in "poor poor pitiful me" business, i forget how much i have to be thankful for.

our apartment office called us today asking about our lease. yikes. we have no clue. if we were moving out, we were supposed to let them know by yesterday, but david's heard nothing, NOTHING, from anywhere. so it's like what do we do? i want to stay here if we're going to be here another year, but is a job going to work out? so many questions and no answers. that's where faith comes in. so hard to keep it sometimes. more like all the time here lately.

but i did get a really good deal today at cvs. that makes me happy. they had dove deoderant on sale for $2.50. when you bought $10 worth, you got $5 back in extra bucks. so i got 6 had a coupon for $2 off each. paid $3 plus $1.36 tax and got $5 back. not too often you can make money shopping :)

work in progress....

i'm trying to redo my blog some. it's coming along. my laptop is totally messed up so i've only been able to work on here when i've got some free time at work. hopefully, i can get my laptop back up and running this afternoon. weirdest thing, runs fine all day wednesday, just it's usual quirks, then thursday, it decides to go all possessed on me. ugh.

i've also never done any labels, so i think i'll start doing those. uh oh, i hear the preschoolers heading to the sanctuary to practice for graduation. gotta go watch!!